Its finally over

All testing has been completed. Finally. I know it was only two months ago that we miscarried, but it feels like it was an eternity, waiting for all the testing to be complete. And who knew? We are completely normal. No clotting disorders, thyroid issues, biopsy came back fine and so did the HSG test. So... why then? I am happy that nothing is wrong, please do not get me wrong. I guess I just do not understand. If it was one time, then sure, I would get it. It happens. But twice is still unsettling. But the next step is to try, try again. So we will. When we tried the first time, we got pregnant in one month. When we tried the second time, it took a few months. The first month we tried with just guessing when I was ovulating and trying to get it right on the right days. The second month, I started using the clearblue easy monitor to tell me when the right days were since a friend had one and she offered it. The third month, I tried the Clearblue and temping and charting. Nuts, maybe. I am a control freak and I have no patience. Yes, even with God and mother nature. Temping and charting consists of taking your basal body temperature every morning at the same time (if you can, I learned I was not so good at that) to monitor the progesterone levels in your body. During a womans cycle, when the egg is released the ovaries make progesterone to aid in pregnancy. If you fertilize the egg, the ovaries continue to make progesterone until the placenta takes over at 12 weeks. If you do not fertilize the egg, the progesterone stops and your period comes. So during the time the ovaries are making progesterone, your body temperature is higher. If you take your basal body temp which is just a more sensitive thermometer and it measures more accurately. For example, it would say 98.66 rather than 98.6. So your temp is high during the time your body makes progesterone. It stays high if you are pregnant and just for fun, at times your body temp takes a dip when the egg implants so you chart all of your temps and you can basically tell if you are pregnant from this, prior to testing. It does work. I knew I was pregnant. If you enter all your temps into a website called fertility friend, it makes a cute chart for you, a graph and monitors your symptoms giving you percentages based on that data with respect to if you are pregnant or not. I know, it sounds crazy, but trying to get pregnant is far more difficult that you think. This time, at least for now, we are not going to do any of that. I am going to take a much more relaxed approach and just see if it happens. I am too tired to put all the effort in right now. But that could change, depending on how nature works.